Before I was a Mom

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. 

I didn't worry whether or not ordinary things could be dangerous. 

I never thought about immunizations. 

Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. 

Pooped on. 

Chewed on. 

Peed on. 

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. 

I slept all night. 

Before I was a Mom -

I never held down a screaming child so I could simply change a diaper. 

Or let a doctor give shots. 

I never looked into teary eyes and cried. 

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. 

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep. 

Before I was a Mom -

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down. 

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. 

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. 

I never knew that I could love someone so much. 

I never knew I would love being a Mom as much as I do. 

Before I was a Mom - 

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. 

I didn't know how special it could feel to soothe a crabby baby. 

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. 

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. 

Before I was a Mom - 

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. 

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, 

before I was a Mom.