I feel like a million-bucks this morning!! Rudy ate last night at 8:30 pm (a 5 ounce bottle from John) and slept until 2:00 am. That's right. 5.5 hours between feedings! I went to bed about 10 so a whole 4 hours of sleep! Amazing! I am pretty sure that is the longest I have slept in a month. And believe it or not, he didn't eat again until 6:30 am. So another 4.5 hours between and almost another 4 hours of sleep for me. He did wake up at 4:00 am, though. I try to always change his diaper first so that when he falls asleep eating or being burped, I don't wake him up changing him. So by the time I finished changing his diaper at 4, he was back asleep. Maybe he just needed some snuggle time because I left him in bed with us, thinking it would be only a matter of minutes before he woke back up and I'd have to feed him, but before I knew it John was telling us goodbye at 6:00. AND he went right back to sleep after that feeding and is still asleep. I don't know if this means I am in for a bad day, or if God was just looking out for me. Only time will tell :)
Oh and the sweetest thing happened last night. He was whining and squirming around unhappily after he ate at 8:30. John and I were taking turns trying to calm him down. He had been awake for a few hours so we knew he had to be tired. So I started to sing to him very softly and he relaxed almost immediately and drifted to sleep soon after. So sweet. It was perfect timing. I had been having some of those irrational post-pregnancy hormones thinking that Rudy didn't know me any different from anyone else and was getting down about it...ridiculous I know, but still, the thoughts were there! I thought, I'm his mother and should be able to make him happy or know what he needs better than anyone else, but he will be happy for anyone or I can't calm him down better than anyone off the street. I just wasn't feeling special to him. I know that's crazy-talk and I'm already over it.
John has been helping me out more the last couple days (he had been working with my dad what seemed like non-stop!). I spent some time making jewelry because the Studio was getting pretty thin and I went to a job interview yesterday (more on that later if anything comes from it). It's been so great having his help and I wanted to do or needed to do those things. But even though he was just in the other room most of the time, I didn't like not being the one taking care of him. Even though before that I had thought, if John could just watch him for a few hours so I could do something else, that would be great. John and him have this amazing bond. He can get Rudy to calm down so easily and has really figured out what works. Of course his methods don't work for anyone else, just him and Rudy (well most of the time at least). It really is amazing to see them together. John is a natural. I guess my emotions and thoughts are all over the place right now!
I think I am anticipating this weekend and its giving me these mixed up feelings. I am in my great, wonderful friend's wedding this Saturday. I've been really looking forward to it for over a year and am so happy she asked me to be a part of it. Her fiance is great and they are so perfect together. Buuuuut that means this is going to be the first time Rudy is going to spend some serious time away from me. I have the rehearsal dinner tonight and my mom is going to watch him. And tomorrow I start the wedding festivities at 8 am and John is playing in a golf outing at noon. So between John, my mom, and LeeAnn, Rudy is going to be passed around all day and evening. Here and there he is going to get brought to me to be fed so that he will only have to end up taking 2 bottles...but still. That's more than he has ever had to take and I won't be around. I hope he is a perfect angel for them and he doesn't get fussy from all the activity/change/etc. At least my first time away from him for that amount of time is doing something fun...better than being at work or something! We are so lucky to have such great help whenever we need it and I'm not concerned about them being able to care for him...it's just the thought of me not being with him that's hard. I've made a page of notes, a schedule for the day, and tried to think though every part of the day...surprised?? It's going to be fine, he's going to be great, I'm going to have fun, it's just one day. I need to have that on repeat in my head!
Well this turned out to be much longer of a rant than I was expecting...have a great weekend!
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Jenn, You really are blessed to have so many people there to help with Rudy and help raise him! Believe me, I know! Jimmy turned out to be my best adjusted child, because there were so many people in the house when he was born! And, I know you've heard it, but your getting away from him a little is very healthy. You will miss him terribly, but enjoy him more when the festivities are all over! Have fun!
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